I miss you alot... It's been only a while since we've talked, but it's felt like years to me... Everywhere I go I see you there... I can't stop thinking about you... I always think of what ur doing, if you fine, or if you need someone to talk to. It hurts when I don't get text every 2 minutes anymore, you kept me conpany all the time, and I'm sure I did the same to you. The 2 years I was with you were the best, and we always found ways to get out of problems, no matter what. I look at old pictures and my heart begins to ache.. I wish you could be here with me again, I miss your warmth so much... It seems like now a days I have no will to do anything.. I skip band more often now, I don't get all my homework done, and I've stop caring about my body. I thought letting you go wasn't gonna hit me so hard but it seems like it has... So many things remind me of you... Mostly my drawings and music... When I see them I remember what I was doing at the moment I was making them; talking to you. So many drawings I've made of you and me... I sob like a baby on the inside and my heart is crushed with the pressure of my ribs... Music repeats in my head over and over and over again... Only to remember I was listeing to it when I was with you... So much of me leads back to you...If it wasn't for you I would of never came out of my shell, I would of never became who I am now... I cry so hard right now... It's harder to type when your keyboard if slipery with tears. I have no one close to me anymore... nobody loves me.. My friends always find more important things to do then talk to me. Since you've left I've been reduced to nothing...

I wish things would go back to what they were...

and I'm sorry for all the stupid mistakes I made... I should of stayed with you and appreciate all the time I had left with you... But I guess untill you come back, I will still be missing you, and keep thinking about you coming over here and stealing me away from all of this...

Goodnight my puppy...